u think i dont know ? shes useless 4 that she dont snoop she dont think she dont kill if i need something punched a little n put into fake jail ? maybe ill call her
i know but youre here now and for a while that isnt going away
you work so youre not spending all your time finding a way back so spend some of it exploring? people i mean people are worth more than what they know it might actually be helpful
i know its not about that i can tell you why i care but
[ i'm not sure it'll change why you think i probably shouldn't / i don't think it'll explain anything for you / you might just end up more confused / you have to promise not to run away from me
there's too many ways to, so she doesn't finish the sentence ]
[ she almost goes for something sedate, a simple why not—
opts instead for a list.
nobody ever said it would be easy. ]
because youre not a good person because youre not a bad person because you think that wasting you wouldnt be a waste because wasting you would be a waste because i enjoy your company because im scared because i trust you because its better to be alone together than on your own because ive had things that you havent and i want you to try them too
because you dont care about you and i do and im harmless
[he wants to give weight to some of the statements more than others; because i'm scared and because its better to be alone together in particular. but in flat text like that (no voice to emphasize, to overstate or undercut), knowing the kind of girl Nill somehow has the courage to be, it's impossible; they all read the exact fucking same]
[it should be easier than this, for two kids from the same dark ground (but of course, no one ever said...)]
[it's not exactly a lie. it's not what he means and it's not a full truth but it's not exactly lie. it feels dishonest - but he's opening up, and a no would be just as bad.]
[is he dead is he dead is he dead is he dead is he dead is he dead is he dead is he dead is he dead is he fucking dead]
[he can't ask it]
[and why would she know, how could he ever believe her]
[it's all just whispers and rumours, he wouldn't be able to see a body (he never found one, he looked, he looked everywhere when he wasn't too hungry to walk or too scared to move -- )]
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go be her family if u want
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you dont get out on your own
people dont get out on their own
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shes useless 4 that
she dont snoop she dont think she dont kill
if i need something punched a little
n put into fake jail ?
maybe ill call her
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shell help you
if she cant she cant but dont treat her like
she is a good person
you dont waste good people
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i dont need 2 do anything
w/ the ppl here
if theyre good or bad
i just need 2 leave
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but youre here now
and for a while that isnt going away
you work so youre not spending all your time finding a way back
so spend some of it exploring?
people i mean
people are worth more than what they know
it might actually be helpful
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i got shit going on
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why r u telling me
shit like this
what do u care about what i do
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returning the favour
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its not about that
i can tell you why i care but
[ i'm not sure it'll change why you think i probably shouldn't / i don't think it'll explain anything for you / you might just end up more confused / you have to promise not to run away from me
there's too many ways to, so she doesn't finish the sentence ]
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[he's never been told that before]
why
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its fine 2 waste me
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opts instead for a list.
nobody ever said it would be easy. ]
because youre not a good person
because youre not a bad person
because you think that wasting you wouldnt be a waste
because wasting you would be a waste
because i enjoy your company
because im scared
because i trust you
because its better to be alone together than on your own
because ive had things that you havent
and i want you to try them too
because you dont care about you
and i do
and im harmless
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[it should be easier than this, for two kids from the same dark ground (but of course, no one ever said...)]
did u ever hear
of a infobroker named nails
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[it's not exactly a lie. it's not what he means and it's not a full truth but it's not exactly lie. it feels dishonest - but he's opening up, and a no would be just as bad.]
i recognise the name
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whatd u hear
about him
how recently
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i heard he dug too deep
and it backfired
not that long ago
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[he can't ask it]
[and why would she know, how could he ever believe her]
[it's all just whispers and rumours, he wouldn't be able to see a body (he never found one, he looked, he looked everywhere when he wasn't too hungry to walk or too scared to move -- )]
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thats all
[ her bravery doesn't stretch this far. ]
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[that's all the street might say, but it's not, it's fucking not -- there were monsters in his home, now there are monsters in his head]
[and his brother is still lost(ishedead) in the darkness (ishefuckingdead)]
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