[and fuck, it hurts more than he expected; everyone knows, everyone can see how frantic he is, as usual, not to lose someone in the dark and the violence]
[he wishes things could be different, just once, and he hasn't given up on finding him (alive) yet]
[ and funnily enough, it isn't just lip service this time, it isn't just empty words and blind reassurance. it's optimism, genuine, all his own. it's hope. for this broken boy and everyone associated, they had to find meguro. ]
[he wants to believe him, but he's scared to respond to that, to get caught up in letting someone know that he believes, and then be an even more obvious open wound if... if they don't find him (or do, but gone silent)]
[but he hopes they do find him, desperately, all the same]
[ its the one place in town he feels truly secure, isn't that a laugh? in his office, he can almost pretend it's just another room in his ship, until he opens the door. ]
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[he wishes things could be different, just once, and he hasn't given up on finding him (alive) yet]
not yet
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[ and funnily enough, it isn't just lip service this time, it isn't just empty words and blind reassurance. it's optimism, genuine, all his own. it's hope. for this broken boy and everyone associated, they had to find meguro. ]
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[but he hopes they do find him, desperately, all the same]
[what he does say is]
do u still
wanna play nice
w/ the landlord
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[ its the one place in town he feels truly secure, isn't that a laugh? in his office, he can almost pretend it's just another room in his ship, until he opens the door. ]
where are you?
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[like always; badou doesn't feel secure in places, he feels secure in people]
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i can help
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i think its important
2 find out about 'tessa'
maybe
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dont forget to eat something
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its good
that ur here
n that ur you
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something tight, clutching hard in his chest loosens enough to breathe. ]
thank u
its good ur here 2