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badou ♈ nails ✘✘ ([personal profile] badbreak) wrote2031-05-21 04:48 pm

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wingsit: (pic#6604656)

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[personal profile] wingsit 2013-09-15 01:28 am (UTC)(link)
i know
i dont know i feel like
they give me a lot
and i give them nothing

i want to trust them
with it
thats the biggest thing i can give them
wingsit: (of this sad night)

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[personal profile] wingsit 2013-09-15 01:33 am (UTC)(link)
exactly
i dont want to answer because im asked
i want to give it to her
i want them to know
i appreciate them enough
to do that
wingsit: (would you fly)

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[personal profile] wingsit 2013-09-15 01:39 am (UTC)(link)
mm
she means well but
she hurts a lot too
because she takes in too much
so she needs shoulders to lean on sometimes

i dont think shed share it
where it could hurt me though
wingsit: (far above the sorrow)

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[personal profile] wingsit 2013-09-15 02:06 am (UTC)(link)
why did you
decide to tell?
wingsit: (to stand behind me)

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[personal profile] wingsit 2013-09-15 02:12 am (UTC)(link)
then this isnt the same
wingsit: (i wish i had the wings)

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[personal profile] wingsit 2013-09-15 02:23 am (UTC)(link)
well i am arent i?
i know how to manage it but
im still ruined

anyway they wont know any better
unless i let them know me
and they cant know me
if i dont tell them where i started
wingsit: (of this sad night)

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[personal profile] wingsit 2013-09-15 02:24 am (UTC)(link)
i dont know
i never had to hide before because
everyone knew
and here nobody knows and
i was so excited
i thought it would be so much better
but im suffocating
im a liar
wingsit: (weighted to the ground)

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[personal profile] wingsit 2013-09-15 03:20 am (UTC)(link)
[ a dry sob, clenching, characteristically quiet and quickly restrained.

he knows more of her than anyone here, and he doesn't think she's ruined. it's good. it means the world, and it's good. just like it's good that nobody knows her skin crawls when she walks past an alleyway, that she keeps her nails trimmed short to avoid finding seeping red crescent-moons on her skin after a night of bad dreams.

it's good, but it's horrid.

her best friend doesn't know her, and she doesn't want him to ]


sorry

[ i'm not brave enough to let you see the rest of me ]

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wingsit: (you need someone)

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[personal profile] wingsit 2013-09-15 01:34 am (UTC)(link)
no i dont think its that
its that they know
how things are
and sometimes its best
not to ask
wingsit: (you knew best)

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[personal profile] wingsit 2013-09-15 01:37 am (UTC)(link)
me neither
i dont know how long to run away from it
wingsit: (keep me here i believe)

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[personal profile] wingsit 2013-09-15 02:13 am (UTC)(link)
i know its not
so i dont want to be running
all my life

no


[ but i'm better at knowing safe places than you are ]
wingsit: (to feel alive)

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[personal profile] wingsit 2013-09-15 02:18 am (UTC)(link)
i can turn around and face it
head on
on my own terms
i dont want it to catch me
when im not ready
but meeting it
that might not be so bad
wingsit: (pic#6604653)

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[personal profile] wingsit 2013-09-15 02:27 am (UTC)(link)
i could ask myself that for years
but in the end i wont know until i try

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