[and the redhead clamps up at that concern, breath shallow, getting worse vocal indigestion than usual]
[fuck]
I -- I --
[jesus, it's like he's got fucking tourettes, with the way those I's shoot out, all sharp and quick and hard]
I -- I just, a-ain't had a good y-year.
[shit, shitshitshit, he hasn't felt like crying this much since those first few hideous weeks after (after), and this is horrendous, this is totally unacceptable, he's in public, he's on the phone with fucking Meguro and he wants to bawl like a stupid kid over birthdays?]
[he digs his fingers right into the brand-new cut below his knee, redirecting his brain from -- everything]
Re: [voice]
[fuck]
I -- I --
[jesus, it's like he's got fucking tourettes, with the way those I's shoot out, all sharp and quick and hard]
I -- I just, a-ain't had a good y-year.
[shit, shitshitshit, he hasn't felt like crying this much since those first few hideous weeks after (after), and this is horrendous, this is totally unacceptable, he's in public, he's on the phone with fucking Meguro and he wants to bawl like a stupid kid over birthdays?]
[he digs his fingers right into the brand-new cut below his knee, redirecting his brain from -- everything]
...Y', y'know?